Deviated Presence - Meaning Of Loss lyrics

the rain weeps past the windows, a strange feeling keeps a hold on me. where am I? what has been before? questions, hardly answerable. cannot feel time, cannot feel myself. loneliness with me that breaks one's mind by time, remembrance, a pale shadow of past illusions. lost the time, lost the feelings, lost the thoughts, lost my mind, why not my life?! [chorus] it's the loss i feel of every day that's gone! it interlards me, gives me a shape that fits this unreal dismal world i want to leave and escape the pain they entered and left this drowning life so displaced, cut roots bleeding. like acid sadness burns in me again i cant find any sense in my life lost my hope before the dawn the time went another time i want to die the strange feeling still burdening me remembrance, the rotten shadow of my illusions. lost the time, lost the feelings, lost the thoughts, lost my mind... i am dying slowly my mind breaks away reality nothing more than the distorted reflections in my cup, there's only sadness, when you're watching yourself die and your world falls apart before your eyes.