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Hey mom This is me again speaking To something fragile Something delicate Something really worth keeping How are you? Are you sleeping? Will you pick up for me right now? Is the dog keeping you happy? Is your boyfriend still around? I know we don't talk much Not as much as as we actually should But I want you to know I think of you As much as any son could But I'm hearing things that are scary Some things that shouldn't be said from anyone but you So will you answer me instead? Like are you actually sick Do you need some tests but are worried Mom, mother I mean Lori Be honest, give me the facts Give me the truth Whole damn story I just want to listen Help Whatever it is I'll afford it Somehow but... Is that the real problem here Because when I look at you All I see fear I see something damaged because she Doesn't see her self for what she's worth You're so damn priceless The richest could never even afford This diamond in the rough I call my mother She's mine I'm keeping her I may not be at her side But I swear I'm never leaving her I believe in her Was conceived in her I been through hell and back I'd go again Just so you and I could sit down and laugh But it's k**ing me Hearing you talk like this You don't talk like this I can't even walk like this Knowing you'd want white chalk Like this It's making me pissed And I miss you more than ever Being your child No; There's nothing better Mom For real you gotta just listen to me You were meant to make history Because of making my sis and me I don't think you're seeing what I see We're family You don't call saying goodbye Like it's okay to be dismissing me I know life is hard And look We've got nothing to even show But no matter what in the long run we have each other That's all I know So d**h can be forgotten Like our demons You're still an angel to me Even when you're screaming But that phone call was just mean To yourself I'd hold you Your face in my hand And give you my life If you find it hard to ever stand But your voice, and those cries I know the pain you're keeping down You've lost a lot Gained a little You feel like you're being drowned And every morning you wake You feel pointless, even stupid But look at me, mom Look at what you did I'm f**ing standing here before you Because of the love in you But the weak person I see right now... I didn't grow up with you... Get tucked into bed or do stuff with you How could I know what's bugging you? If I thought you were such a piece of sh** I'd put the slug in you I know you're in there You hear me You need to feel my voice We were meant to feel and endure, mom You don't have a choice So Here's my heart in form of letter Read it, you can have it If there's one thing I don't understand It's the mind of an addict I know it's not magic It's tragic This havoc So I speak to you like this Because now I have had it