Destruction - Autoaggression lyrics

I'd rather destroy myself than be destroyed by you Autoaggression - better than being destroyed by you I cannot cope with things oppressing me But I can punish the people who love me Banging my head against the wall Take away any chance to live my life the way I want Not my fault, not your fault anyway I don't want to live, I don't want to die Pain I feel - pain you feel - feel it now I always used to hide my emotions Because I think no one really wants to know The things that I can feel inside Inside of me where nobody knows What is going to be Hurting me feels good to me And lets my hidden self go To be free