Departures - Disappointment lyrics

This is the disappointment, It's all unraveling Pa**ing out on these pillows that we used to share, Lying to myself, helpless with myself Thinking through dead end memories What did you really mean to me? Sick to my stomach Of staring at these four walls Its the saddest sight, I've not slept enough tonight I've tried to talk myself out of this, but I'm all out of words In this love story absent of the love, Standing so close together But our hearts are beating out of time, Clasping hands so tightly but we're barely holding on I have to let you know This goodbye will leave a stain on my mind And as these words linger on our lips, With each dying breath we hang our heads So as the train pulls away I tell myself that I'm okay without you And as my heart begins to pull away, I tell myself it'll be okay And I don't miss you, I'm not missing you