Departures - Memorial lyrics

I've woken up cold Feeling like the loneliest boy in the world Waking up freezing Knowing that you're gone I'm woken up sick to stomach Knowing I can never see you again Waking up so lonely Knowing that you're gone I'm having one way conversations with you inside my head Repeating those words That f**ing k** me to have never said It's these thoughts that I carry with me It's that knot in my stomach, it's the pain that surrounds me I just wish I could say this to you That after everything that you put us through I thought that the worst in me was everything that I got from you (I just missed the chance to tell you) If I scream loud enough, do you think you could hear me? And I could tell you one last time how much you meant to me And how just one little word would help me write a better ending And I could tell you one last time how much you meant to me And I could say that I tried my best, and it would help me put you to rest There is a light and it guides us through All the heartache that life decides to throw at you Now I can sing our songs So much louder than before They will keep you with me The soil won't matter any more