Departures - d**h of Youth lyrics

There's that lump in my throat The one that I get when I'm sat all alone Brought to me by anxiety and a life unknown It's the thought of d**h it completely surrounds me It never lets me go Wait 'til tomorrow, they say But what if it doesn't come Because so many things keep ending As if they'd never really begun Writing out all these useless words As if they'll ever mean anything anyway Writing out words that I͛m never going to read again Filled with "yours" and "mine" and "yesterday" And what happened to them Reliving old stories I'm too entrenched in my past Reliving my youth I think I'm just too long in the tooth I'm never looking forward I͛m always looking back Nostalgic thoughts surround me As if I'll somehow get it all back It's these thoughts I carry with me, they weigh on me in my bed About life and d**h and dying And the soil pouring over my head I'm always counting down I'm always ready to think the worst Tied to old stories Tied to my youth Reliving old stories Reliving my youth It's these thoughts I carry with me, they weigh on me in my bed About life and d**h and dying and the soil pouring over my head