DeLaZoo - Art School lyrics

It's been a day or two since last I've showered Even longer since since I've shaved since lately, I don't leave the house much Got a care package from home, and I done been so f**ing bored I swear to God I played with the packing peanuts for about an hour Call my parents, my sister, girlfriend and cousin back home Everyday to see what's up because I'm working alone Tryna get this music poppin but at the rate that it has not been if I die today they'll probably put my hearse by the phone Cause Ima whither, waiting for calls that'll never come Calls that'll change my life, Calls that the rent'll come If I just push A little harder when all has been said and done I'll be eating and somebody will offer their bread and crumbs To support a dream, sh** don't happen that way Had I known Ida never come to Cali and stayed So now I laugh at the face, of that dumb a** 18 year old kid that I was, convincing his dad for the pay He tried to make it here, sh** I got what I saw Ignoring warnings that the golden coast was stomping by art Ain't nothing promised here I knew, but no one mentioned this unlikely... And yep it is cliche but yo that's not what I thought I come from Kalamazoo, I was performing at bars And any profit from the shows got simply poured in my car For the back and forth on gas, I never asked for more than that I just thought I'd get that here once my momentum kicked a start It's been damn near half a year, People don't know that I'm here Know I'm supposed to have no fear but this supposedly my career And I done f**ed up any hope of back up plan since I was 15 That's the average I graduated with, 15 That's a f**ing 1.5, honors kids find no one hiring at these times So who am I to find the gusto to apply Like "Hi, my name is Devin, I've spit since 16, I've got tattoos, never held a job, what positions are free?" Not a thing to show on resumes, but plenty of almosts But the deals I should've signed won't f**ing get me at costcos So what am I to do, don't need my name up in lights Or to be famous being poor or to be hated or liked I just wanna like myself and what I'm doing to contribute to the world In my own specific way I'll be a little Only goal is to be someone a younger me would look up to And not be disappointed, if you don't get it then f** you It wasn't made for you in mind, cause I won't change my tunes a dime I've done all the appeasement I can it's a waste of time All the balling like the Lakers, grinding hungrier than Darfur lines Felt disingenuine that's not what I'm in art for I'm in it cause I feel like I've got something I can teach Some kids that I can find that might be lying out of reach And if I'm wrong then fine, but I'll be damned if I don't try If I fail I'll pack it home right after riding out my lease There's just no song to right to make it better Learned far more just this week than I could in just a semester So for everyone that told me one year back that I should just start school I did, ya'll just took the standard route, I went to art school