Delacey - Everything You Need To Know About Me Today lyrics

{verse 1} I don’t know when i started to feel so old I don’t know why i’m here and maybe i won’t Or why god lets me live in this beautiful world While others die, others die {verse 2} I grew up right here on this little street So why does it feel unfamiliar to me And why can't i seem to fit into the world No matter where i go, no matter where i go {verse 3} The last time i smoked weed was ages ago I get paranoid so i won’t anymore But i'd smoke out of apples on my patio In my underwear, i burnt my hair {verse 4} I don’t know where i go when i can't be presеnt Or why i feel like dying every now and thеn I know there are scars that are just permanent But i’m still so young, i’m still so young {verse 5} When i lost my grandmother, i lost myself I'm wearing the ring that she gave me, it helps But i swear to god i can't feel her no more And it breaks my heart, it breaks my heart {verse 6} I moved to new york with my best friend A sh*tty apartment and we shared a bed I hope that she found out who she was then Cause i still can't tell you who i am {verse 7} I hate every tattoo i got on myself I feel like i got them for somebody else You can get them removed so i might as well I can start over, i can start over {verse 8} Sometimes i starve myself when i’m alone I want to be thinner in all of my clothes But mostly i just wanna love myself so I’ll try to stop {verse 9} I look up to my father like he’ll never know He gave me a beautiful life as lives go Won’t amount to half the man he is, i suppose But he taught me of god, he taught me of god {verse 10} I met the man of my dreams after all We’ll marry each other and kids won't be long I've always been scared to be somebody’s mom But i’m changing my mind, i’m changing my mind {verse 11} Can’t remember what i wanted out of my life Always wanted to be something more than a wife When i was a kid with some innocent eyes Before i’d seen the things i’ve seen {verse 12} My papa told me that he has his regrets But he wouldn’t change anything that he’s done yet He wouldn’t even unsmoke one cigarette And i believe him and i don’t believe him {verse 13} Nothing i sing even matters, i bet A lot of artists can say things that i’ve said I can list 25 at the top of head Better than me, better than me {verse 1} But i came really far, yeah, whatever that means And you’d look at me and think i got my dreams But i can't tell you what for the life of me I even wanted, i even wanted {outro} But life is what you make it And love is what you make it And pain is how you take it And youth is what you make it So age is what you make it And fate is what you make it