Del-Lords - Silverlake lyrics

I wake up tired, I wake up late It gets dark these days about half past eight Waited for good fortune to come to me Waited till I couldn't stand my own company My friends said there's gold in those hills out West I thought I'd put that old notion to the test They said, “Be careful, man, the sun don't rise it sets” Maybe that's funny to you It's just a matter of tryin' It's just a matter of cryin' It's just a matter of lyin' to yourself And, everybody else Now, I'm a stranger where I've been many times before But, nothin' much scares me anymore A bullet through the heart of the city of my birth A target on my back everywhere I go on this earth I know I will never go home anymore What I'd find I'm not even sure An orphan in the storm in the Land of Setting Sun How can I explain this to you? It's just a matter of tryin' It's just a matter of cryin' It's just a matter of lyin' to yourself And, everybody else Every night we ride the Mystery Train Leaving behind the Human Stain And, yes I carry a few regrets None of which I will ever forget But, I love a woman and she loves me right back My songs are my lantern, my dreams are my map Another chapter in the Big Book of Me Who knows how this story ends? It's just a matter of tryin' It's just a matter of cryin' It's just a matter of lyin' to yourself And, everybody else