Defeater - Bastards lyrics

I hope this finds you well A father lost and mother dear The family that's kept me here Heartless and cold, and I've learned it well How to loose everything How to push you away How to lie when I say "I never raised a hand to the ones I love." Now look at how You beg and pray For your god and his grace To keep you safe To save you from me My broken spirit and back My calloused, shaking hands The ache I carry in me My grief and skeletons The weight you carried inside A weight that held my bloodline Black out the sunlight I count these burdens as mine And still all you see is that ba*tard in me Believing in hell A father lost and mother dear The family that I squandered here Heartless and cold, and I forgot it all How to loose everything How to push you away How to lie when I say "I never raised a hand to the ones I love." But I remember how You begged and prayed For your god and his grace To keep you safe To save you from me My broken spirit and back My calloused, shaking hands The ache I carry in me My grief and skeletons The weight you carried inside A weight that held my bloodline Black out the sunlight I count these burdens as mine And still all I see is that ba*tard in me