Deer Tick - Ashamed lyrics

I am the boy your mother wanted you to meet But I am, broken and torn with halos at my feet And with your purest light why don't you shine on me Well I should have been an angel, but I'm too dumb to speak Now as she gets nearer, the visions get clearer I'm kneeling, weeping, I will hold her dear Oh, if your eyes water You've got your favorite number to spin What a crying shame A crying shame, what we became Murdered my throat screaming bloody all night Hit him with a book and how he crumbles Oh you should have seen, how the arches tumble They're golden no more now I'm smiling in my blood I'm caught in a whirlwind I'm going to heaven I'm standing on trial and it's painted on canvas An eternal testament to how we are so animalistic What a crying shame A crying shame, what we became I bow my head in the morning light and say goodnight I held her hand and I, I kissed her eyes Stumbled down the stairs and hang my self, on high And I started for the town that I have a front yard, and died