Decontrolled - Self Portrait lyrics

Now I'm still Can't bare this for long Somehow it seems I am forcing this life To be like a God Feeling so sick taking everything, got no thing to give You speak to me Words of a bitter truth What I've failed to see Unable to move for you I fight the one inside The other one, but I lose the last round So, desperate, I agitate It's a never-ending deviation Hollow pending... I will never know why I still stand "And time will come When I'll see the sun And all the love I missed Yet deserved Won't be too far Till then I'll carry the burden of being me, every day" I'm out tonight, I'm fully loaded I chase a dream, which I cannot reach Disconnecting mind Let a body rule I wish not to wish, I wish not to see How I stuttered When I should speak Broken down where I should stand How I've dropped you down Everything How peacefully I've waited, waited, for the end Sometimes I feel like I'm the enemy Your faith is such a hard thing to gain Is that what you see in me? So many things I know, that you can never see See I'm not naive I'll get what I need All alone, it's just me and these walls They can all hear my whispers They keep all, all the beauty The secrets that were meant for you What we have made Time will never change What we've been, no one will ever be What I've wished, I've failed to see Say it again, wanna hear it, from you, the end... What we have made, you will never... You will never forget Sometimes I feel like I'm the enemy "So what?!? So what?!" she says... So many things I know, that you could never see See I'm not naïve, can't you see? Sometimes I FEEL AS IF I AM the enemy Your faith is such a hard thing to gain That's all you saw in me So many things I was, that you could never see See I'm not naive; I've got what I need