Decontrolled - Awakening I lyrics

Well, I finally realize what meant the pictures Wedged deep into my mind, ever vivid No illusions left, they're all broken Feelings once lost now recreated No Don't try to make this mind feel the sorrow Now I'll try and take this pain to history I'm waking up, rearranging the pictures It's so hard to collect the pieces of broken consciousness Yet safe in my belief, so eager, I wait for tomorrow To outlive the world that forced me to murder! No! This time I'm staying strong, so free! Now! I'll try, deny this pain, this misery! Why... I... Why... I... Why I had to try to die Someone tell me Why I had to try to die So I can be free