Deaf Havana - Anemophobia Part II lyrics

I took a boat the other day And I felt like things had changed The calm of open water Numbed my nerves away But the clouds are coming in And I felt my body shiver I guess it's just my trigger To revert to darker days I still worry about the weather But not as much as I used to I think I'm getting better Or maybe growing up I know I'm growing old 'Cause the cracks begin to show When I wonder where did twenty-five years go I see it now It's not what I need 'Cause a saving grace Never came along for me I see it now And I'm asking for help And only I can fix myself I see it now I feel so ashamed some times 'Cause I'm a privileged man With a privileged life My friends have suffered tragedy And terminal disease Yet they still laugh about the bad Because the good is all they see I see it now It's not what I need 'Cause a saving grace Never came along for me I see it now But I'm asking for help 'Cause only I can fix myself I see it now I see it now I'm not quite there I remember names and faces But I haven't got away from this place Maybe it's for the better Maybe I'm just better off this way