Dead To Me - I Love My Problems lyrics

Is this my existence now? I've become jaded, I hesitated...every time I should have jumped right in Its not too late, we'll begin today I love my problems, so please don't solve them They provide excuses, for being useless I had a dream that everyone I knew was in my room Staring at pictures of my past life The one I spent dying to get out of my own head I never succeeded I know not what I want to be But I'm taking notes on my enemies today and every day I love my problems, so please don't solve them They provide excuses, for being useless I love my life but still I find a way To f*ck this up just when its gets so good We run around until there is nothing left Just empty shells of our fleeting youth and anyway I'm not the same I know not what I want to be But I'm taking notes on my enemies today and every day I love my problems, so please don't solve them They provide excuses, for being useless If only you could hear me, when I am thinking clearly It's so loud, but I'm stuck and I'm repeating my mistakes But at least I didn't break down again today like that day, it was so loud I'm stuck and I'm repeating my mistakes