Dead To Me - Ran That Scam lyrics

Somewhere there in between The dirty s** and the faded jeans I caught a glimpse of a man that I used to be He scared the living sh** out of me I must of ran that scam about a million times Now I'll do it again just to prove to you that I can So what am I so guilty of? Didn't I listen or was there something I'm missing? I think that my problem is I fall apart when... I start sweet and then get mean Until I'm bored with everything I can't stand that you're all so close to me I am so afraid of what you'll see I know that I said it, but I never meant it I already jumped in I already jumped right in I gave myself a chance and I bought some time I wrote a lot of words that say I'm fine When they offered me a chance to f** it up all again I said I believe I could So what are you guilty of? I f**ing panic when you're here