Daylight - Selfish lyrics

The end is far away Not getting too much sleep these days These things I can't explain Just wishing for an early grave But they don't understand me I wanna be selfish Only reason I'm still alive Can't stand to see my mother cry I'll suffer through Only reason I won't die Can't stand the tears in her eyes I'll be home soon The saddest thing is It's the only thing that I want I wonder sometimes why I don't just give up and take my life And they have no idea That I'm so close to my dying day I hate this feeling There's no healing There's no coming back from this hell (I wish that I could make you see) (I wish that I could face today) I want to be free from this