David Gill - The Dream That I Had lyrics

When I was a child, I had a dream, a goal that I thought of as I was skipping stones across the stream. I said to God, "if you make this come true I will be forever in your debt. I just want this dream, that's all I want to get." I told everybody that I knew and they said that it couldn't be done. I replied, "oh yes it can - with the help of God and his son!" For the next years, I waited for God's call to go, I shouted, I called, but all I heard was my own echo. There seemed to be voice, there seemed to be something there, although all I heard was the negative people that got in my hair. Later, I learned of atheism, theories, and science; I went to university, where on one fateful day, I simply chose a life of mediocrity. My professor handed me a supposedly wonderful book, I opened it up, the first page was the one at which I did first look. "Evolution is here. God is dead." - a chapter title to which I just shook my head. I realized then and there that my entire life had been one, big lie, my dreams, hopes, and aspirations did, right there, die. All of a sudden, life had a new meaning to me, who needs morals, values, or why should one even marry? Living was simply just about paying my bills, getting drunk, using d**, and having a few other thrills. I moved in with my girlfriend to a place by the dock; we had two children - of course, out of wedlock. We raised our children as atheists, we taught them to fight; we told them to use this knowledge against the religious right. Eventually, many people asked us why our teenagers used d**, the only way I could answer these questions was with simple shoulder shrugs. Fast forward 40 years to when I was lying alone on my d**h bed; upon learning of my illness, "who cares?" was all that my family said. All of a sudden, I heard a knock at my heart's door, I opened it up gingerly and, when I saw who it was, I fell to the floor. "Jesus!" I cried. "You're alive! Where have you been?" "My child, " he replied, "I was here your entire life. You just wouldn't let me in. Thinking I was dead was just a notion that you put in your brain; you never gave me a chance, you never let me explain. You took the Big Bang Theory and evolution as being facts, when, in reality, they were nothing but clever acts. You let all the nay-sayers, the atheists, and the negativity cloud your head, you shouted, yelled, and when you didn't hear me, you concluded that I was dead. In all that commotion, my voice was there telling you to 'go', but you didn't hear it, all you could hear was the word 'no'." Afterwards, I wept and I told him how I didn't deserve God's compa**ion or love, my soul wasn't clean at all, it wasn't white like the color of a dove. And then I saw a huge, loving smile come upon Jesus' face, he said to me, "obviously, my child, you haven't heard of God's Grace." "I'll give you a few more years of life; in the end, I want you to be a part of God's winning team. It's never too late. Go follow OUR dream."