d**hboy - At My Best lyrics

i'm getting paranoid again, I'm reconfiguring slowly these nights, when I try to decompress I get lonely it's not like you give a f** if I'm ok it's not like you ever knew me anyway and I don't know why I even care every time I see you sitting there can't seem to f**ing think of any words a head full of verbs none of which appropriate you only seem to see me when I'm at my worst a low-grade parasite bivalve of approbium you never see me at my best I'm always drunk, trying to impress Apologise for the time we last met playing catch-up in an infinite regress I try to show you that I'm not what you think knocking back my problems with another f**ing drink and every chance I ever f**ing had of proving otherwise I self-sabotage, I auto-demonize it's like a fairytale sprinkle me with alcohol I try to crush the paranoids with paracetamol I live between the words we dress up like we know them all I am another demographic of the demerol if I was you and you were me well, I wouldn't blame you for the things you f**ing see one, two, I'm not like you three, four, and I need some more five, six, an*lyse these tricks seven, eight, never procreate one, two, gonna push right through three, four, on the cold, hard floor five, six, with a tough remix seven, eight, learn to hide your f**ing hate