Ari Hest - When and If lyrics

I wrote her a letter yesterday Told her that I'm fine That I can't wait to come on back And make up for lost time The same life I promised her before I'm gonna give her when I open that door They say I'm here to fight their cause And that I could die trying I'd like to think their aim is true But I think that they're lying The same life I was living well before I'm taking back soon as I open that door Lord will I live to see that day' Deliver me a sign 'Cause it is only a matter of time Before I lose my mind Yeah I'm losing my mind The same life I was living well before I'm taking back soon as I open that door 'Cause every day that I wake up to this war I load up my gun and I can't tell you what for I wrote her a letter yesterday Told her that I'm fine I may not see her ever again But I'm gonna die trying I'm gonna die trying I'm gonna die trying Die trying