Anti-hero - Lost (on The Outside) lyrics

Every moment of everyday, all I dream about is running away Or I try and find the quickest fix, but every time I try to hit, I miss, for far too long, I used to be so strong. And I have difficulty breathing. I can't hear my heart beating. I have numbered all my insides because I don't wanna be lost on the outside. I used to walk but now I just stumble. Everything I love seems so far gone. Is it worth it? Am I just a failure - waiting for my world to come crashing down? And I have difficulty breathing. I can't hear my heart beating. I have numbered all my insides because I don't want to be lost on the outside. And I, and I, and I - don't wanna be lost ... on the outside.