Anthony Jay Sanders - Kitchen (Lost) lyrics
I almost caved on a night that I'll never miss Everybody that I loved seemed to ball their fists I felt friendless and unwound I heard d**h's beckoning sound I a**aulted my system like I never did If I had more, I'd be another statistic kid But I didn't, and I'm here Now I redirect my spears I'm better, braver, and know more now than then I will never taste that hate I felt again 'Cause I'll never I stand and drink water in my kitchen like a goddamn idiot I think about the people I've hurt and the lines they hit me with Clear like fear, aloof like another thing Hands at my side, can't see that I'm juggling I'm not the center of anyone's self, but I have several centers I'm not the center of anyone's self, but I have several centers Some people look old when they turn thirteen I'm in my kitchen at night 'cause I had a bad dream Some people look old when they turn thirteen I'm in my kitchen at night 'cause I had a bad dream about you Only you can rip me out of this kitchen And make me grovel all over town You are the split where I fix my vision Open your door, I'm outside now The most guilty I've ever felt You outdid all the art we saw In your honor, I'm dropping anger In your honor, I'm dropping anger In your honor, I'm dropping anger Don't get lost in the place you live See the way the webs you wafted stick all over ever finger Learn to forgive Don't see a burden and make your bed It's not worth the folded shoulders You'll sleep coverless and colder Call me instead, call anyone else You look so perfect in your house Definitely something Definitely something I don't remember what I'm supposed to say right now It's been a hard year I don't know if I've been pretending to be happy while pretending to be sad I feel like a ghost watching Anthony be young Home is really far away I'm gonna clench my teeth all the way there