Antestor - Betrayed lyrics

I am in pain I am... the cursed one Life is not what it was meant to be What I didn't ask for has now turned my way Somewhere in a garden it all turned wrong Things I once believed in have now turned evil Yet I pray, "Deliver me from evil" But another spell pulled me away Will suicide break the ring of curse Tomorrow I'll be gone, so don't look for me I am lying on my d**h-bed, with chaos in my mind My life took more than it gave Betrayed and deceived I will now pa** away And with the gun in my hand, my questions Are soon to be answered Will suicide break the ring of cure... Satan and god, the thought pa**es my mind Heaven and hell, it's not up to me If the Christians that I've seen Represent the true God of heaven Then it's not a place that I want to be But if I'm blinded, please open my eyes And help my now... Will suicide break the ring of cure Tomorrow I'll be gone, then you'll be all alone