Ant - Caved In lyrics

[Verse 1: Spawn] The door opened, in walked my brother Terrified, teary-eyed, I'm wide open Only to hear our father died It's not true, I'm hopin' I need some air, I'm chokin' Get me off this ride, where's life goin'? Feelin' I'm lost, I'm frozen Suspended in mid-traumatized state Why I'm chosen for this fate? I don't know Head shakes back and forth emotional Unsociable, not speakin' Remainin' silent, cause I'm weakened Deep inside I'm freakin' Want my father back, I need him Why's God cheatin'? Takin' half the two that gave me life My mind replaces thought, now no longer can I sleep at night Not feelin' right, insecure, now what's my future lookin' like? Ain't dealt with d**h before, age 11 and can't take no more My hands on the floor cause my stomach's feelin' sick and I was mad at the Lord Because he took him all too quick that day On his way to pick me up, he never made it Blamed it all on myself, therefore I dwelled in self-hatred On a path called destruct, many thought I wouldn't make it I hate it, the way I feel, but I just can't seem to shake it Somebody take it away, this mad situation My world is breakin', and I feel I'm 'bout to cave in [Hook: Spawn x2] I tried to take it all in After it all settled I couldn't begin Accepting you were gone, but understood [Verse 2: Spawn] Hey dad, I miss you, for every day gone And for the rest of my life, try to remain strong Until we reunite, live on, your memory From the seeds you planted gently Thanks for being there for me And all the time you spent with me Love sent for me(?), if I could only have that day back To sit down and rap, shoot the breeze and have a chat But the fact still remains, still later, on the day I have to meet our maker I write my feelings on the paper, for now Along the golf course where you once played I see you as I drive by, I feel you like your presence is there I stop and I stare, I see the pictures of days we shared Well aware that you cared, makin' sure I was prepared for life The hardships, the struggles, the garbage, and the troubles That come with it, always kept my head lifted I grip it close to my heart, everthing you taught me My dad, my hero, you have my love for all eternity [Hook x4]