Annie Bethancourt - This Time lyrics

I wish that I could say, with strong conviction that I stood so unmoving in my position of unceasing joy and abounding faith at the touch of your hand and the sight of your face But I was the one who stood in your grace and walked away And I only wanted to be free, but now chains of solitude bind me and they keep me from thee So I will ask again to be at your side And I pray that this time I abide, for the only thing that keeps me from you is my pride I fear that I cannot stand in this thrashing ocean of my own will, piercing worry, and stubborn devotion to my own life in my own way my own words and not what you would say But even though I turn you away, you stay And I only wanted to be free but now chains of solitude bind me and they keep me from thee So I will ask again to be at your side And I pray that this time I abide, for the only thing that keeps me from you is my pride How can I be a vessel when I am so shot full with holes? And why would you even want me when I won't let your mercy flow? Holy Father, hold me in your hand so the water that seeps through my soul is somehow saved from escaping and poured from your hands once more For I only want to be free so take this broken life from me and bind it to thee And I will ask again to be at your side and I pray this time I abide for the only thing that keeps me from you is my pride