Anger - Torn Mind lyrics

The will i keep inside has been pulled out yet another time the shiver down the spine discharges from this twisted mind but i want it, do i need it? should i feel this torn inside? the shadows of my innerself once more have left to seek the light grievous faces pa**ing by it´s not my turn to knot the tie someone else´s got that role another one to say goodbye a part of me was left behind but all the rest keeps me in time the sorrow changes into desire again i feel as one all days i drag myself in quest for peace of mind no rest, no compromise i need another try to feel alive, to be ... alive ... now ... confusion in this mind, no more need to be consoled i will never waste more time, i will never loose my time shall embrace my own fight, never fearing a goodbye never staying left behind, that is really not my kind no, you are not like me, a little special but you ain´t to be you gotta work it harder, then you might take one step further down the hole, where life is to be told no, i´m really not like what you once knew of me now i´m clean and it feels good all the meanings become real do you mind that i feel this much inside this torn mind