Anger - Low Life lyrics

I'm used to wake up soaked in sweat In the middle of the night With none in there to look after me I didn't even mind I pulled the sheets twisted in pain Hopeless, crying alone And picked my jeans up, suited to hide My rotten skin and bones Drag in the mud , now i drag in the mud Spotting the dealer for the usual scam I pawn my values, i borrow from buddies To all who care, give worries But i can't care, damn all that Into this mess, i'm trapped I grab my fix and get my gear I run in for a spot And desperately, to ease the pain I end my life in vain