Anchorage - Epilogue lyrics

I've scratched at my skin and slapped myself in the face More times than i'd like to admit But there's no waking from this nightmare; You left like the rest And you told me we'd be together until d**h; These empty promises have fallen to my feet. and i'm just too tired to pick up all these pieces And so are you; And darling, you said we were meant to be You said you'd never leave Well it's been a long while Since you've checked up on me And i can't say i'm doing better And i feel so cold in this april weather And i'm wearing the sweater You loved so much f**, i miss your touch Against my calloused skin I wish i would have let you in Sooner than i did I miss living inside your head As you lay down to sleep in your half empty bed with eyelids made of lead And darling, i just wish i was dead most nights; I remember every word you said In moments spent laying on my trembling chest And you loved me more than the rest I loved you more than the rest But that was before I was such a f**ing bore; I talked your ear to the floor And you lost everything we worked for Was it a connection or a forced invention Created under this distant tension? I don't know anymore But it's obvious we've hit regression And this lovers pension Is dried up and broken More than the only question: Where did your love for me go? When did your heartbeat slow? Have you cut your hair yet Or are you letting it grow? Oh, who the hell even knows; We don't talk, but i'll stop writing If that's what you want from me I'll never meet your eyes with mine And i'll never lay with you again To watch the sky And as we come down From this beautifully tragic high I just wish i would die Where did your love for me go? When did your heartbeat slow? Have you cut your hair yet Or are you letting it grow? Oh, who the hell even knows