I ran away But it saved my life And the lights outside my window Help me sleep at night 'Cause when the lights go out It all comes crashing in Just how lucky I am To still be breathing in And the footsteps as I walk towards my front door The key slips The lock scratched The sound so familiar 'Cause I traded in my jacket For a newfound sense of freedom 'Cause winters, they don't Scare me like the used to anymore And I sold my guitar 'Cause I don't really write so much anymore And I've kind of grown accustomed To all the noises in my head I gave up searching I think I'm happy with who I am Even though I chewed up And spat out my family and friends I've still got my whole life To make it up and make amends I know it's not much to you
But maybe you could understand I breathe in This city And look at what I've started I think I've spent enough hours k**ing myself Over what I thought you saw in me And when I leave I try to keep it off my mind That the rains back home Swallowed all I left behind I gave up searching I think I'm happy with who I am Even though I chewed up And spat out my family and friends I've still got my whole life To make it up and make amends I know it's not much to you But maybe you could understand I ran away But it saved my life The lights outside my window Help me sleep at night It's like I'm standing on the edge of a life to be And whatever happens next was always up to me No longer will I compare myself To establish my self worth