I'm sick of losin' family everytime I blink my eyes
And at the rate that it's goin' feel like I need to stay inside
'Cause I don't wanna be the next n***a to fall in a coffin
Lord knows everybody that I love die often
Or wind up in the cage & I don't seem to understand
It ain't nothin' but a few of us left, I can count on my hand
If I tried to make a song for everyone that I lost
I'd probably have a triple CD in my deck when I floss
And that's a damn shame, people entertained by pain
I think I'm only sellin' records 'cause I'm goin' through it mayne
I received a phone call from my old man today
He was goin' crazy 'cause his older sister pa**ed away
And in my mind I think she lookin' down smilin' away
But still it hurt, I'm writin' this & it ain't even been a day
At least I got to give her a kiss & told her I love her
Hey Christina, promise it'll never be another damn
I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop
'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got
On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop?
But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out
I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop
'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got
On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop?
But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out
To tell the truth I'm never bein' happy nowadays
In my everyday livin' will make a n***a wanna blaze
I don't smoke, so I'm runnin' reality head on
All the pressure & pain, comin' to me is dead wrong
Only time I get to smile is when I see my lil' boy
If he only knew I'm ridin' down for my boy
I ain't got too many friends so I'm ridin' by myself
Your own kin'll try to do you when on a mission for wealth
I was told every person get a day of they own
I guess they skipped over mine, I been in line for too long
Why they won't leave me alone? I just wanna have a life
I'm sick of livin' in the dark, trippin' searchin' for the light
I'm a soldier so I fight 'til I'm runnin' out of breath
And I ain't runnin' from the devil, it's war until the d**h
Dear Lord help me out, I think you missin' all my calls
My back against the wall & I ain't got no time to fall at all
I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop
'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got
On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop?
But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out
I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop
'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got
On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop?
But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out
It ain't no more tellin' me that it's gonna be okay
I watched the judge try to throw my roll dog life away
It's safe to say any day I'm a be checkin' in
With everything that I'm facin' they gotta let me in
I only rap about the struggle 'cause it's all that I know
I'm a**umin' people hate me 'cause it's all that they show
I never asked to be a rapper, I was stuck with it
And f** this sh** 'cause I don't feel I'm havin' luck with it
And it seem like I'm really trippin' sometimes
And all I really want is the Lord to show me a sign
'Cause everything been rough when it's comin' to me & mine
Since it's raining everyday I'll be prayin' the sun'll shine
But it don't & on the real I don't feel that it will
I'm the last one left until I end up gettin' k**ed
I wanna turn away but still I know that it's real
And deep inside I pray that the Lord'll be my shield, my pain is for real
I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop
'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got
On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop?
But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out
I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop
'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got
On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop?
But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out
I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop
'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got
On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop?
But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out
I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop
'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got
On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop?
But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out