The what if's are k**ing me
Keeping me awake
I lie to myself but my heart is to smart to be tricked my brain
I'm not okay,I'm not
But I will be someday
I'm strong but I'm wounded
I can tell myself I'm moving on
But that's just a poor excuse for comfort
It's just camouflage for abandonment
And I can spend my life waiting for the grand moment
You take me back and make me laugh again
That would be a miracle
Which is impossible by definition
But I miss you
I know you can hear it in my voice when I talk to you
I can see it in your eyes
I used to love your eyes
I used to love our lives
Living is what I'll do
It's always what I've done
The clouds have got to show the sun
I will find the better days
Deep down I know they'll always be in reach
I've reduced to how I usually feel when I fix to mind that I won't see you
I've reduced to how I usually feel cause I won't see you