[Verse 1]
I dunno what I was thinking,
Leaving my child behind,
Now I suffer the curse and now I am blind
With all this anger, guilt and sadness,
Coming to haunt me forever,
I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river,
Is this revenge I am seeking,
Or seeking someone to avange me
Stuck in my own paradox I wanna set myself free
Maybe I should chase and find
before they'll try to stop it
It won't be long before I'll become a puppet
[Chorus]
It's been so long,
Since I last have seen my son
lost to this monster
to the man behind the slaughter
Since you've been gone
I've been singing this stupid song
So I could ponder
The sanity of your mother
[Verse 2]
I wish I lived in the present
With the gift of my past mistakes
But the future keeps luring in like a pack of snakes
Your sweet little eyes, your little smile,
is all I remember
Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper
Justification is k**ing me
But k**ing isn't justified
What happened to my son, I'm terrified
It lingers in my mind and the thought keeps on getting bigger,
I'm sorry my sweet baby, I wish I've been there.
[Chorus]
It's been so long,
Since I last have seen my son
lost to this monster
to the man behind the slaughter
Since you've been gone
I've been singing this stupid song
So I could ponder
The sanity of your mother