The sudden change in the wind that new smell in the air I wonder where have I been as I check if I’m clear Most of the time misunderstood rest of the time I ain’t even heard Like a ghost I keep on wandering like I’m lost inside this hell on earth Hear me out when I’m speaking damn it listen to what I have to say I’m gifted is what they say when I’m living in a curse that never breaks I’m losing it I’m tired now my conscience is being wired now My heart feels like a god damn rock Which is constantly being hammered down Sick of caring for you people I’ve lost my youth in giving sh** Now I’ma do what I have to do to get to my goals and leave your sh** I’ve made myself brick by brick my consistency cemented it I’m hated more than I’ve ever been loved I’ve spent my time understanding this I’ve been at the rock bottom twice or thrice I can’t recall But I got back on my feet again after every fall like a concrete wall I don’t grab my balls when I rap Cuz I don’t feel a need to show you that You can know that when you learn more facts About the life I’ve had in my past
No I don’t relax I’ma f**ed up man I’ve bled more times than you’ve been cut I’ve cried in the nights for whom I’ve hurt I hate myself for what I’ve done So many times I tried to end this life that felt like a freaking curse Somehow I made it alive every time I thought I’ve end my world I’m not a g I’ma simple man but I’ll f** u up if you f** with me I’ve lost it all and still I’m here don’t try to test your luck with me I’m peaceful till you piss me off but when I get pissed I f** things up I don’t wait for karma I become your karma to f** u up I hear those voices echoing in my ears all the time I see them things that you don’t see I talk to them inside my mind I’m trying so hard to stay within the border line of sanity I’m losing a part of me every day as I try to live this tragedy Then I light up a cigarette, breathe out the fire Knowing it will k** me, guess that’s what I desire I’m fighting with myself, every day n night, I’m in a war I’m tired now but it’s not over so I’m trying my best to win for all