[Verse 1]
And when that pen touch page
You can see that ink dry like desert rainfall
Head in my hands
Rip my hair out throw my phone against the drywall
Man i'm drowning, need drainage
These nights got me back in Cambridge
The streets are lit all around the square
And imma circle them, just be aware
Damn the houses are enormous
As I stumble through the forest
A drunken night performance
They want us to be conformists
But no, middle finger up to authorities
Think all humans are minorities
Cuz if we look at our being
Every day slaved up, need some freeing
Type a long text, press send, then I keep myself busy
Your response, generic, like "when I move back, let's hang in the city"
But I never hear again, like you got occupied or its fabricated
Year removed, me and you, think it's true, we just are outdated
Okay exaggerated
Wouldn't mind being with a type like you, but hey now since you graduated
What you doing in the future
You look like you wanna be happy, I could be your suitor
Like clothes get tailored
Girl next door, be my neighbor, maybe later
That shoulder you gave me, so cold, like it could be a skater
But back to the basics
Wanna win you over, don't wanna place sixth
I know there are other guys that you talk to you
But let's be real, have you talked to them
Like you talked to me
We'd talk and walk til 3, sun is out, birds are out, on some deeper sh**
[Verse 2]
On some deeper sh**
Look at us together, that's some keeper sh**
I've heard lightning strike in same places
I know at one point you were so gracious
Where'd that girl go? Tell me when you find her
Hard to believe but trust me, I myself am way kinder
Than before, more now cause I live for me, had to give to me
Took losing you, being angry, rock bottom before I'd forgive me
Now i'm all forgave
Why you scared of the future, go be brave
Live your life so reserved, you should misbehave
Face your fears, nose dive in a wave
Yup yup, on another wave
Like hello, hey hi sup how you doing
Every day I window shop, nah just viewin'
Wanna find a girl with a laugh so infectious
Beauty with a style topped with a pearl necklace
Only L she take is her drop top Lexus
But she get D in the bed, so reckless
Ask why I write, tell her i'm just hooked
First time I rapped, should've seen their looks
They were so impressed, this little white kid raps
He didn't need a beat, all we did was clap
Had to help these girls, lose a couple straps
Get lost in them, didn't need no maps
I'm team no sleep, don't need a nap
I'm mad at myself, I relapse
And the battle begins I'm counting my sins
Live in different skins, feel like both twins
Like there's two of me
Guess that's just my view of me
But see me, think I grew to me
New style, so j crew of me
I don't know who is me