[Part 1]
Its all hard to stop when my hearts in a dark place
Thus before I go on lemme part from my ways
My thought process changes from the start of the race-
Cuz this is harder than I thought
Its not as easy when its all on you-
Remember everything we see can be further from the truth
Is there any specific reason the devil calls on you?
Just to fall to, this is much more than we thought
We're all to fall from the very damn start
Without the help of god just so it could watch
How I overcome this moment right now-
Cuz the future holds nothing
Just a possibility, and a hope that I reach it
But theres always the possibility that I won't be able to see it
Maybe if heaven was real, id never come back
To this muthaf**in' war of what we call a home-
If prayers became true im sure we'd take it for granted
With no more pain comes the nonstop parties
Cuz we should all only care so much-
Yet we are all so quick to judge-
Keep in mind my words are in my own name
If im here for some purpose or whatever y'all sayin about-
What god has planned, I want no part in
Remember were here on earth for a reason
The Place of no perfection no matter how much we desire-
I know I will always want more
Where mistakes become lessons unless we end up in the fire-
Cuz we all have our evil ways, its balance
And karma, does circle around
Even though it seem like it dont
Even though it seem like it dont
And it just isnt the same when my heart just isnt in it
The Song sounds different, I couldn't recognize your voice-
And the scar in your eye tells a different story
Its not the star in my life no more-
This road just doesnt cut it you left way out the picture
But i'd wish it wasn't the way we left it now-
But I should only care so much
I should only care so much
[Part 2]
But its all hard to stop when my hearts in this dark place
And when you came around I was no longer a lost trace
Now my heart isnt in this, not today
Thus before I go on I part from your way
Its not as easy when the pressures all on me
To try to find the right words that would get you to stay-
If I knew heaven was real I would never come back-
So I consider myself lucky im alive another day
The Goddamn devil mustve had a f**ing epiphany
Hes never shown himself when i've fallen-
Cuz its all hard to stop when my hearts in this dark place-
Thus before I go on let me part from my ways
If prayers became true, nothing would matter
And before I blame you, i'd say nothing after-
So dont worry much for me, I won't worry much for you-
This could last forever but tha's somethin' you dont need to know-
That and the devil never showed up
As I look in your eyes and tell you you'll hear from me
In the back of my mind I know that ain't true-
It's just this isnt enough anymore
Fairbanks was always a great place
But I see a lot of dead ends-
God could watch me overcome-
Because the future holds nothing
No limits and a promise of something new, I ain't worried to much-
With alot to do, atleast im still young-
We should only care so much-
Yet I care just to much
It's not the same when your heart just isnt in this
The Song sounds different, I could'nt recognize your voice
If only prayers became true
If only prayers became true
Luckily the goddamn devil had an epiphany-
It didn't show up when I called it to me
Thus before I go on lemme part from my ways
Instead my hearts in this dark place-
Its all hard to stop because its harder being sober-
And I won't pray no more
I'll only focus on fixing this myself
Lord watch me