The pain of twisted narcissistic abhorrence for failure Breathes a sigh, a cold fruition of my ways Among these facile misconceptions, thirsts for rapturous delight Dulcet tones, trivial words, and warm displays And here I dwell in dark recesses, in this brooding state enslaved Begrudging innocence from my decrepit cell Lure the detriment within, enticed vexation, tempt denial And spurn the fleeting piece of mind I knew so well And I know reflection never counts for nothing But my an*lytic mind won't let me be And I'd give anything to hold you while you're sleeping When I'm with you All these fears I've fashioned fade away When I'm with you And everything is so much clearer When I'm with you The nights hold no more shadow than the day Can I consume the cleraere artate amid thei pcloud of senses Literally extract the best you'll see And exercise these fiendisng legions, fraternise...space Reveal the base of simple grace and not the deed And I know reflection never counts for nothing But my an*lytic mind won't let me be And I'd die for you, you hold me while I'm sleeping When I'm with you All these fears I've fashioned fade away When I'm with you And happiness seems so much nearer When I'm with you The nights hold no more shadow than the day I pushed dependence away, I found control I was the eye of conviction, I was whole Moulting fears of rejection, my hands grew still
Set my sights on direction and aspired to will Woeful thoughts left behind me, a stayed disdain I buried cold dereliction, I could feel again Watched my apathy crumble, like a friend betrayed Exiled penance forever, I'd never fade. I'd washed pretence from mentation, I'd found my door I'd rid myself of confusion, suffered doubt no more And at the road's intersection, with my head held high I bred my own resurrection, bid myself goodbye Shed morose lamentations for discarded skin Childhood dreams of perfection, of finding peace within And as these petty delusions slipped from sight and mind I found myself quite contented She drove for miles to spend one night Then home again, you whispered in my ear Forever danced upon your lips Your fingers nestled in my hair Your thighs and eyes my drowning fate As I immersed myself within The sweet perfection of your gaze The warm affection of your skin She played when all had slipped away Pursued before she saw the flame She waited patiently for me When no one else would do the same She mourned at every parting word And brushed afflicted fears aside She took my soul into her keeping Add I'll miss her For all she gave to me And I'll feel her For all she helped me see Add I'll miss her But I'm living strange And I loved her But things change