With childlike eyes
A maturity in reverse
All memories fade from view
And the mind remembers
Only pain and sadness
Reverting back to childhood
A smile I once know
Diminished into the darkness
Of my mind
In these walls, I live
The abuser placing obstacles
A force of nature
Only seeing what you want to see
And erasing the rest of your life
Everyday we live with these secrets
Pushed deep inside of us
Waiting for release
Or to find a way out
As I reach for your hand
You are not there
The beholder of consequence
In these walls, I live
The abuser placing obstacles
Dreams destroyed before me
Of brutality, a mind control
We can't see
Beyond our own emotions
An insecurity
I can't justify in my mind