[Verse 1]
Go and k** yourself, that's what they told me
You're not worth it, your music's sh**
Tried the best I could but I just couldn't
Lost it all and how the f** I'm still here
Is beyond me cause all I ever do is think
Drink a lot and jump on a track and think
Write and I think but I just don't think
I overthink so badly that I lose myself
Break myself tryna lose myself
Lose myself even more tryna find myself
Girls f**ing hate me even though I be myself
What I do and what I am is never enough
They all say it's my fault and it's tough
Told me to get a grip when I tried to take my life
Battling haters, doubters, anxiety, depression
Alcohol, sadness, I'm feeling empty
Feeling lonely, tryna figure out if this is worth it
Is it worth it? Do I go and fight another day
Or do I park here and go for round three?
Wait, where's the f**ing tablets?!
They don't care about me and that's clear
I get that but all I wanna really do is be me
Show the world that I'm a writer
A rapper, fair enough it's a mismatch
5 foot 10, 10 stone kid white from Newcastle tryna make it
My hometown won't touch me, that's okay
Worldwide love, that's even better
What if I left here and left an open letter
Just give me space, I just need to breathe
The time will come I'll leave, ahh
[Verse 2]
I'm running, but what am I running from?
My fears? My past? My mistakes? Myself?
It doesn't add up cause I don't know myself
Do I give it all I've got or give it all up
Stop here and watch my team feel let down
See the disappointment in their eyes when I give it all up
I don't wanna give up, cause this is my dream
Every time I walk out and I see the bleam
See all the people chanting my name
Yeah it shows a brand new flame
But I can feel the flame slowly burning out
I don't have the energy like I used to
Dealing with more sh** than you could possibly imagine
[Verse 3]
Ryan's had my back since the first day
Was always there without the pay
I overdosed, but it wasn't for f**ing sympathy
What do people not get? I was down
Down in the gutter, down and out, down in the dumps
Fighting my way out a never ending story
A never ending fight I wish would end
Couldn't see straight, just needed a friend
But they didn't give two f**s then Ryan
Threw the rope down in the deep hole I was in
Helped me back out the hole and back to my feet
Threw me in the studio with my old lyrics
Couldn't thank him enough, or my fam
I fought my demons and k**ed most of 'em
I know they're there and they always will be
But I'm ready for the fight
I can do it, I've came so far, it feels right
[Verse 4]
No matter what happens you can do this
They will always be people that hate you
Doubt you, and make sure you feel like sh**
But I'm here to tell you that you ain't sh**
We all have flaws but an imperfection is what
Makes us perfect and makes us different
I learned now what it takes to be myself
You can be yourself, don't follow what they say
Follow what your heart says and where it takes you
I was an underdog that should of never made it this far
So if I can prove them wrong, so can you
Keep fighting till you can't fight no more
You got this, I believe in you