Is this...really what I want? a lonely life?/
For the love of my life to be anothers wife?/
As I lay here thinking in my darkest days/
Regretting the words that I'll never even say/
It's kinda hard to think about it, kinda hard to cope/
I got a picture in my wallet, we were young and full of hope/
But now that's torn in more ways than one/
I wanna show you love but I'm scared you're gonna run/
And it's hard to breathe when you walk my way/
And it's hard to believe that you're never gonna stay/
I hear you once, but I see you twice/
Should I keep it to myself or maybe roll the dice/
But this time it's different, I can't just let her go/
f** another regret, this is the one I have to know/
I told her all the things I never told her before/
Like I loved her from the first day, certainly more/
You left me feelin so empty/
Months go by and I'm missing you less/
But you popped in my head when I saw a summer dress/
I pictured you in it, and naturally I'm there/
Standin by your side enamored by your hair/
And we start walking, hand and hand/
A rock on your finger makes me feel like a man/
A face of disappointment is erased, we're happy/
Forgetting all the people that would treat you badly/
And I'm sitting there smiling, can't believin you're with me/
And every time I feel down, you're there to lift me/
But none of this is real, I bet you don't even miss me/
Still staring at this window hoping no one's gonna pinch me/
It's k**ing me inside, this is harder than I thought/
I tried to start a fire with a match that wouldn't spark/
Deep down I kinda knew that it never would light/
But what's the point of life if you're never gonna fight, right?/