I sit alone thinkin, what's the point?/
Might as well get drunk and smoke this joint/
But it never used to be like this/
I look at the stars and I'm lost in bliss/
But the shoe fits, so I wear that sh**/
Cause things change, other lights get lit/
But it made me sick how quick it flipped/
And I missed the blip it's now a sunken ship/
Sixteen years, it was built for nothing/
From the dumb mistakes to the normal cussing/
Confused as hell, yeah, thinking it was different/
Scared to talk and I became more distant/
Self pity, now I feel so sh**ty/
Cause I wasted youth in a time so pretty/
It was a place of freedom, without the cost/
Many years ago, it's gone and lost/
You love it some but you hate it more/
Is it worth the pain when you're on the floor?/
Is she worth the risk, is she another who*e?/
Do you open up or do you close the door?/
I grab the pie and I take a bite/
The odds are bad but the feeling's right/
I wish it was simple like black and white/
But things can flip from day to night/
Bi-polar, maybe that's what I am/
One minute I'm good but one minute I'm bad/
But I don't think, that it's that/
I'm just on the brink, and I'm f**in mad/
And it's f**ed up, how much I think of you/
I mean half this sh** is just meant for you/
And I hate it, man I really do/
But it's hard as hell to move away from you/
I just don't want things to change, okay?/
I was never good at letting things get away/
I grew up, but I stayed down/
And I screwed up and never left the ground/
I'm thinkin back and that hindered me/
I was shifted back with no symmetry/
No rules no laws, cause I made my own/
I walked my path and now I'm all alone/
You love it some but you hate it more/
Is it worth the pain when you're on the floor?/
Is she worth the risk, is she another who*e?/
Do you open up or do you close the door?/
I grab the pie and I take a bite/
The odds are bad but the feeling's right/
I wish it was simple like black and white/
But things can flip from day to night/
A midnight call it's now 2am/
A regretful talk cause I'm drunk again/
A slurred speech as I stumble on/
And I'm talkin nonsense all along/
And it's all f**ed up cause I'm part of this/
I guess the bottom of the bottle's where my heart is/
Cause talkin about love is the hardest/
And once you open up then you turn into a target/
I bury it, and I smother it/
And I lock it up with that other sh**/
Cause every time that I bring it out/
I regret it quick, and I think about/
The who what where when why of this/
But I kinda laugh instead of getting pissed/
Cause at some point, you just turn numb/
And you go for broke cause you're f**in done/