[Verse 1]
I can't stomach or digest it, why am I invested?
Sick questions, heart hurt, cardiac arrested
This chick has me chewin' on my pen cap
Pen raps ‘bout how the friend stat breaks if it's bent back
I get that it's unfair, because even to me
Clarity is unclear
Living without a care, I gotta stop these thoughts
You're an inkblot, what I'm seeing is what I think not
A brink plot, feelin' fallen like autumn leaves
I oughta leave but that'll prolly be
Mistaken as a loss to me
Love drunk, breathalyzed
Made a mess of lesser ties
Just to impress my left chest
It's regrets with best kept goodbyes
Now that's a good lie, and she just stood by
Maybe she just needs a good guy that would try
[Hook]
All left everything, waitin' til she's left everything
It's better if you leave but I'm better when you're here
Better when you're gone, please listen clear
[Verse 2]
You don't understand, you're the reason for my art
We were young, but I saw right now from the start
And our past, something I can't see past
To leave that would mean my scars gotta recede fast
Unnecessary spite for guys treating you right
‘Cause I see it like, why ain't that light
On me?
I mean it's cliché to say “girl of my dreams”
But it fits the definition, ‘cause you ain't what you seem
But it's changin', best kept secrets remain stainless
Lest we forget my prior engagements
Feelin' my feelings can't be k**ed
Tryna conceal by fillin' ‘til they sayin'
“Don't spill”, it gives me chills
And you never been the type to tell me what I wanna hear
But now the choice words I'm looking for are unclear
[Hook]
All left everything, waitin' til she's left everything
It's better if you leave but I'm better when you're here
Better when you're gone, please listen clear
[Outro]
Maybe I'm crazy, crazy enough to ponder if's and maybe's
Chasing the taste of us like it's a fifth of Bailey's
It cut my inside like a bay leaf, I stayed bay deep
In a phase bleak, that could breach what I wanna lose least
So it stays on loose leaf, never resenting what's right
Woke up to the smell of today, and the scent of my wife