The only way to truly feel alive is by watching the eyes of someone die
Lost in the dark corners of my mind
Drained in a vortex
A black hole inside my soul
Imprisoned in my shadow
Terminal depression
Violent compulsions
Unconscious, confined to darkness
Deterioration
A schism of identity
Vital suppression
I'll breathe d**h in you
As you breathe life in me
The only way to truly feel alive is by watching the eyes of someone die
I'm by myself and the dark is so cold
I shut down my eyes and I wish I could die
Their screaming my name, I'm suffocating again
Falling deeper within I never want to get out
Backed in a corner I carve up my arms
The pain is so real, so bittersweet to feel
In solitary confinement
Dissonance, twisted reflections
Innocence betrayed
Primal uncontrollable blood lust
A need to satiate
k** all the pain inside
As I k** everything without
Eyes of light are mirror sharp knives
That stab and deface
Emptiness, despair and sorrow
Constant disarray
It's time to end this
Fill the void with their lives
The only way to truly feel alive is by watching the eyes of someone die
She's covered in blood as the axe crashes down
Severing her leg, she cries out in agony
Her screams are so high, intoxicating bliss
I take out my knife and then I slit up her throat
Watching her die I carve out her eyes
I'll take it all back all which was taken from me
In solitary confinement
And in this final hour
Shrouded reflections of the past
Greets me one last embrace
I take my leave from this life
A life that was never truly mine
Filled with the bittersweet taste of never-ending pain