It's starting to pull me under, I can feel it beneath my feet
The last few months have pa**ed so slowly
And it's been so long since I've seen your smile
I'm afraid to ask what's wrong so I sit and stare
Frustrated digging my nails into my palms
I never wanted you to see me like that
Bloodshot eyes, bleeding fists, speechless love, a new year's wish
I never wanted you to see me reenact those days I threw away
Stuttered screams from a distant voice:
I followed you all the way to your front door
No words could take the pain from your eyes
Like a knife through the heart
I'll be sleeping alone tonight;
And when I wake you won't see me again
You won't have to worry about me anymore
I'm sorry for all the times I f**ed up
I'm sorry for every time I let you down
You always said it was hard to talk and I guess it always was
But it still feels the same, I still feel the same
The only difference is you're not there
I brought this on myself: you're not there
When I need you the most, you're not there
And I can't stop thinking of you