one day i left my room in the evening it was freezing the sidewalk shining but it was ok i wasn't lonely i wasn't no one i was just hoping for a bookstore like the one i prayed for and the music they play there would be dinosaur jr and the people who worked there would be super skinny and super unfriendly and that would make me happy what really k**s me is I'm only lonely when i talk to you yeah i should have told you i just cant handle your endless sorrow all i wanted from you was some tomorrow but its ok I'll find a bookstore and buy Saul Bellow
& one about old ruins for my mother you never met her she liked manhattans they taste like mouthwash she understood how to be alone all alone all alone maybe the worst is over maybe the worst is over maybe the worst is over maybe the worst is over i left my room one evening the sun had just gone down but the sky still shining and not even the stars up in heaven could throw their ashes on the blue still burning over this ugly city and that makes me happy and that makes me happy and that makes me happy and that makes me happy