Ambleside - Forgive Me Pt. 1 lyrics

I look back on the years, can't pretend to forget A picture, lost progress, I wonder how you've been Your laugh and your smile, while I'm losing sleep lost inside my head Tell me you're pa**ed this, it's over and you've moved on ‘Cause I can't explain why the past few years were meaningless Forgive me, I did everything that I could Forgive me, I wish you saw it from where I stood I've read over the words that you left in my head A look on your face I could never forget I know it's been a while, I still live in denial Nowhere to be found when you needed a friend Couldn't handle the pressure I started to cave in So I told myself that you were fine Tell me you're pa**ed this, it's over and you've moved on ‘Cause I can't explain why the past few years were meaningless Forgive me, I did everything that I could Forgive me, I wish you saw it from where I stood I've read over the words that you left inside my head And I stayed up all night trying to ease the pain, but nothing changes I punish myself and fall into a wretched whim The guilt that burns inside my chest, the memories they freeze within These empty picture frames, (I couldn't ask for your forgiveness.) Torturing these cold and lonely nights. (I couldn't ever apologize.) I can't escape. (How could I ask for your forgiveness?) I suffocate from outside in. (How could I ever apologize?) I punish myself I called for help, they took you away Forgive me, please forgive me I punish myself with each pa**ing day Let the tears fall from your eyes as you fade away