Already A Thief - Tug Of War lyrics

[Verse 1: Already A Thief] Man… I never thought it'd be this hard To say whats on my mind They say that love is blind And it s**s that I can't see Every time she's hurting me Keep going back to her Acting like it doesn't hurt Slit my wrists one more time f** it hurts I hate my life I hide my feelings for my pride With her I refuse to cry When I go home I ball my eyes and I won't lie it really hurts Love's a game I never win if she's upset I'm sorry then If I'm upset I'm wrong again the next day it is on again And it's my fault this time again if I'm upset well f** it then The one thing I can say is "Damn, Why do I put myself through this It's bull sh** is what it is" I love the sh** so no I will not ever quit. Damn This game I play, every day, it's gotta stop But that one thing I won't ever say "You're hurting me you know that right?" I'm just gonna keep that to myself tonight cuz it's just not worth the fight [Verse 2: Already A Thief] You only apologized cuz I told you to I only feel good when I'm holding you So what are you supposed to do? Nothing, just don't talk to me What you say is negative to me no matter what it means Cuz I take the sh** offensively extensively I'm so sorry Emily I know you are defending me But God just won't be cleansing me of my sh**ty memories Up in my head it's messing me Up I don't know what to do f** I don't know what to do I better not be losing you… It s**s so much that everything I touch just breaks down And falls straight down to the ground now matter how it may sound just hit me in the face now with mace now cuz I will like the pain, wow! But damn it burns so good it hurts like it should not much worse than it hurts when you curse at me [Verse 3: Already A Thief] Clap to the pain Laugh at the irony I may be insane, but say that to the gun I'm firing Talk behind my back quietly, what is going on in this society? I can't take this anxiety... This rivalry inside of me is driving me to insanity I'm spiraling out of control I'm losing it I can't take this sh**, I love this chick she means the world to me I promise she's the girl for me I bought this girl a promise ring cuz I swear to God I'm promising to love her And care for her But how do I do that if all I do is break her? I s** I know I do I'm stuck on what to do We cuddle, you push me off of you We hug, then I go away from you We text, its good what next? We crash, hit the ground now I'm at an all time low Jon Bellion can't even get to me So next time you want to talk sh** to me Just think of where you're hitting me Cuz right now I'm pretty weak [Verse 4: Already A Thief] I've held it in for quite some time It is eating me alive Everything that is inside I no longer wanna hide. Damn All I do is whine and cry I no longer wanna try but I know I'm gonna try So that I can stay alive Cuz I know that I will die without you being in my life I don't wanna see you cry If only you could feel my pain I don't wanna fight again I just wanna be your friend I just wanna be your man… Damn… I love you You're everything to me I can't bare to see you leave I don't think I can survive without you Who the f** am I crying out to? No one can hear me All I have is a microphone and still I'm tearing Maybe you should think twice about dating a guy with tattoos and earrings But regardless of my appearance… I still have feelings and I still am fearing losing the one person I'm dearing I wanna be with you forever that's the one and only clear thing I'm here now and I will never be disappearing You're the other piece of me without you I am not complete So please just be with me and never leave