Allrounda Beats - Frozen Tears (in memory of my cousin John R.I.P) lyrics

(Intro) Audio of my Grandmas Cell message telling me john died (song start) -now i'm stuck sitting in a moment of time the sounds around drown out the world is mine - -I ain't ever giving up lifes beat me up I still ain't had enough- - so I'm looking at the man in the mirror and who I really am Is appearing alot clearer- -another cracked rear view for you to see threw - -the trouble is i see the pain too and it always pushes threw- -I just lost a loved one at such a young age such a tragedy- -But I can't let that rattle me when I feel sad and mad trying to understand how life gets so bad- - the diamonds story continues to unfold the days pa** and its starts to get fuzzy when we look back- [melodie of hook interrupt]sometimes I feel so alone" -got your pic every time I look I get sic- -this sh**s so f**ing hard to cope with- -I'm an artist but I can't paint tomorrow- -If I could you would be here and I wouldn't feel this sorrow- -time is something we own, no its something borrow- -It s**s when were feeling so f**ing empty and hollow (hook) [jab] Sometimes I feel so alone an the worlds cold [2mercilous]people wonder all the time why these tears on my face are froze [jab] its so hard to go on when life goes wrong [2mercilous] so tired of knowing that were going to die alone {verse2}[2mercilous] -I remember the days of having happiness but the grimm came around an took those days away- -Can't believe you ain't around anymore got me walking in a daze- -No more days with you an me what happend you got taken out of life so quickly- -Back then I was most likley not to have kids now I got 2,3 and pssibly 4 Baby momas a who*e but that would be no surprise to you -always clowned on me about my choice in women anyway- -homey I miss you soul seems to be dead without you- -can't believe you won't be here for me- I thought only the good dye young you must of had some secrets- -and thats ok you always kept mine locked up and hidden away- -you were the only one who new what went on in my home -Your moma was always stressing you trying to say im no good just a vagabond- -guess your mom was right but you still stoo by my side and helped me with my fights- (hook) [jab] Sometimes I feel so alone an the worlds cold [2mercilous]people wonder all the time why these tears on my face are froze [jab] its so hard to go on when life goes wrong [2mercilous] so tired of knowing that were going to die alone Verse 3 [jab artistry] -so i go threw the pain only to let the tears out in the pouring rain- -it drives me insane but i got to be a man keep me emotions restrained- -my daughters need a soldier but this morning I spent 2 hours crying an i needed a shoulder- -its hard when there gne wishing we did more while they were here- -you only live once and it effects your family and loved ones- -I used to not care that none of you were near- -now im thousands of miles away and i wish i was there going threw the motions of the day- -I'm mentally in another place I need a change of pace now i just really want to see your face {melody from hok interrupt "so alone"} -emotional prisons they ain't all easy to escape time heals wounds but it doesent give presence- -It just makes life more relevant- -uncle I'm sorry, I know we got a past- -this is another apology but hopefully the last - -I hope you understand we go thru stages when we become men- -so i regeret some of time idly spent - -but I'm working twice as hard to recapture it again- (hook) [jab] Sometimes I feel so alone an the worlds cold [2mercilous]people wonder all the time why these tears on my face are froze [jab] its so hard to go on when life goes wrong [2mercilous] so tired of knowing that were going to die alone