Aliyah Metoyer - BULLSHIT lyrics

I always feel like i'm f**ing up Every time i try i f**ing get stuck My mom always told people stories on how as a daughter i s** But when i am victorious she won't care she only acknowledge my mess up It sad to wake up everyday and have nothing to look forward to All i can really do is pray and hope that god is listening who Am i to say that i really hate the color blue Well that how feel'and this feeling is real I feel like a nobody trying to be somebody I try not to f** with bullsh** but i realized bullsh** f** with anybody Everybody that really cares for me dies like my granddaddy Sometime when people hurt me i laugh like it comedy I really really wish that i had a different family A family who would show there love for me unconditionally Naww i regret saying that i feel sorry that a wrote that stubbornly But at least i understand why some n***a turn to robbery My life is f** up i can't flow with this type of harmony Only god knows why i'm alive this feeling just happen suddenly I'm insecure sometime i cry for my father he homeless Sometimes i pray for my mother she going Through men after men because she sick of loneliness People judge me all the time but yet they never seen the real me It funny rapping about my life shows me things that I've never see It gonna be hard to click save and not delete this sh** but i'm ma let it be I got tired to the point where i'm like f** romance I'm to the point of shutting down i feel like i can't no longer stand I'm sick to my stomach it hard to remember gods the man He relief my pain cause only he can understand I hope i'm not treated differently because of the sh** that Happen to me and my family But i have to post this or i'll never let it go People always ask my age but i never tell i never show My reason for is i'm not trusting no one no more Except god that the man i trust he never let me down He the main source that pick me up off the ground He the reason i'm posting this cause i gotta let the pain go Well that my life this is what i f**ing go through It hurt me to say but everything i wrote was the f**ing truth It crazy how no matter what i do but that is just that But im okay with it and also im done with this f**ing rap