AJJ - Deep Dark Basement (Spaceman dub) lyrics

I recall that deep dark basement And I recall how bad it smelled And I hated everyone around me I even hated myself Which I still do On my bad days You punched my mother in the mouth We fled to shelter safe and pure But now I never feel at home And I will never be secure Oh to be secure And when you pushed my face in sh** How could that have made you feel Like a man or like a monster It's your fault I can't tell The difference