AD Beats - What I Am lyrics

[Verse 1: Pa**ionate MC] What I can, was never part of the plan These palms gave 'em the light til it darkened my tan To the point that my voice had to go for a stand Against the noise from these boys and their marketing scams I wanted to be regarded as an artist to man But I'm neglected like the child of a father who ran Only offer my hand like Moses with a staff To clear the usual path cause he promised the land This is anger nothing's in my water and can holding the anchor I drag Noah's Ark through the sand To the very last beach that might have each rat reach Where every MC is accepted except me What could it be, what did I do wrong ? I only held the mic and wanted to move on I just wanted to write and give 'em a new song But instead of the flight they just wanted me to fall But two wrongs never make it right Instead of taking a chance I could have taken their life So I sat back calmed down closed my eyes Cause every single one of us has a Hulk inside And every single one I trust, had choose to lie in hopes I die Hung by the ropes I tied, just to save them For when their bolts subside within the mayhem Post by an open mind cause before I let jack be connected to feel I take a seat in the electrial chair and watch the volts just rise I swear to god when I wrote these rhymes You would have sworn I was born as a poltergeist In a form even thought couldn't pulverize It's like I took an unstoppable force and another Unstoppable force and watched them both collide I am polarized and crush every line when the pools combine It's nothing but mathematics a scientifical prouch mix with a bad habit And an impulsive obsession for having so many Ooooosborne From the crowd you would think I was Black Sabbath I am nothing average a stomping savage in a southern fashion With hundreds of other rappers running when I hurt the ma**es This rehunger has it wonder if I can manage all the suffering Without something to combat the damage It's hard to move, arms both scarred and bruised Every wall and the floor in my apartments room I can't help that this haunted mood has forced me to The edge where I bled to ignore the truth And my heads thrown off confused A ball of fumes waiting just to spark the fuse I crawl but the steps are of no longer use I try to talk without my neck thoughts formed a noose So I hang without heathen rage without reason I sometimes feel like I was made without meaning How could I be one of hip hops saviours if I can't Defeat the cause of hip hops failures Too familiar with feelings of lost And foolishly think I can win if I give it my all I was wrong again and again, yeah again and again So many times I never thought it would end And when it did I was not prepared I stopped and stared right at the clock cause the top was near All I ever had to do was grip lock my fear As if there was never any other options there I drop a tear every night before sleep It's like people give all of their mics to ignore me On stage I am giving thousands of bars and not once did I ever get a round of applause I'm doubting my course surrounded by mountains of floss This is f**ing war the underdog with a rusted sword Cutting all four with the force of a thunderstorm I gotta' grew to my loved mom that even though I left school I can rule with a couple bars all it takes is a little bit of faith And not to confuse the criticism with the hate Cause jealous n***as hate I see them all dissing me Mad at the fact I reflect what they wish to be Cause am gonna' make history Like Beethoven upon d**h writing his last symphony Physically I am alone in the dark throwing my darts Hoping I'm the chosen Saphan, boy you're looking at a man That has molded his arm from the pain of every girl that's Ever broken his heart I'm broken apart But as long as I have pa**ion and all of my Assa**ins I am able to get past it